Ladies and Gents

Gixxer · Post by **Gixxer** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 12:51 am

for my recent "disjointed" acts/posts as it was put with good intentions to me and i thank that person. i guess i will shed some light.

i have been lying to you and to myself about my health. it is worse than let on to be. i start tomorrow in a battle for my life. i have waited this long even after being warned several times of the consequences of it is killing me. i have waited because in a way i have always thought i could beat anything that i came up against. i always thought after a few "you shouldn't have lived through that" moments that maybe i was invincible and could shake it off. i also maybe didn't want to think i was sick because i feel good, look good and can outdo kids half my age. as the doc put it, "you usually do feel good, ... right before you drop dead."

i now fight a foe greater than myself, as much as i hate to admit it, and two nights ago an episode late at night lying in bed with my wife let me know the urgency and that I am human and i had better let the Docs do their work or sooner or later i will lose.

tomorrow i button some things up and head to the hospital for what will be the determining of my and my family's future and my life. i will let you know when it is over with for those who care and for myself as it will mean i have fought and won another battle. a battle that i now realize has a couple year head start and is the most important battle i will ever fight.

Downhill, i will now truthfully answer your earlier question of what i am afraid of.

I am afraid of dying.

Humboldt · Post by **Humboldt** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 1:09 am

Hoping for the best

blebs · Post by **blebs** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 3:42 am

May I inquire what this ailment is?

catngo · Post by **catngo** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 3:44 am

Gixxer! there's always hope!
my dad die in 2003 of liver cancer (deadliest illness) and ppl said that uncureable! after he die, i did some research on it and found something really interesting! it may not work but if it true as the article said, it's the cure for every illness exist! hey, like u said, nothing to lose. u may want to try it out as the last resource! check your pm, i've sent u a link! btw, i need u around to find me that dam driver for my usb tv adapter

JC · Post by JC » Fri Aug 15, 2008 5:40 am

You and your family are in my prayers.

downhill · Post by **downhill** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 8:18 am

Gixxer, be happy for life and fight for it. Do what your doctors tell you to do.

Best wishes!

David · Post by **David** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 8:21 am

I will be praying for you.

tao_jones · Post by **tao_jones** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 8:26 am

I will keep you in my prayers.

Jamie_R · Post by **Jamie_R** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 9:26 am

Prayers for you bro - stay strong!

chimdogger · Post by **chimdogger** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 9:57 am

Best wishes man.

MissTynker2 · Post by **MissTynker2** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 2:30 pm

Best wishes, thoughts and prayers be with you. WIN!!!

Lefty · Post by **Lefty** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 3:01 pm

Best of luck to you.

Roody · Post by **Roody** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 3:05 pm

Hang in there man.

CableDude · Post by **CableDude** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 7:09 pm

Good luck.

OSULLY · Post by **OSULLY** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 7:21 pm

You have my prayers and my hope.

ghettoside · Post by **ghettoside** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 10:28 pm

this had something to do w/ wanting to do a phone call?

I'm praying for you bro.

I am in shock

Russell · Post by **Russell** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 10:57 pm

Praying not only for your health but also your peace of mind.

knightmare · Post by **knightmare** » Sun Aug 17, 2008 5:59 pm

Prayers always GIX, keep everything positive, even your thoughts....

jeremyboycool · Post by **jeremyboycool** » Mon Aug 18, 2008 8:00 pm

A_old · Post by **A_old** » Mon Aug 18, 2008 8:15 pm

best wishes

Shinobi · Post by **Shinobi** » Mon Aug 18, 2008 8:24 pm

Wow.. Prayers sent man...

Shinobi

Debbie · Post by **Debbie** » Sat Sep 06, 2008 5:09 pm